Balancing heaven and earth is hard.

Imagine two circles. One circle is Zach’s Inner World. The other is Society.

In order to begin the process of integrating with Society, the two circles must have some region of overlap. But the circles are too far apart. Evidence for this can be found in the poor state of this website, which before today hadn’t been updated in two years.

One major recent transformation of my self-image is that I don’t see myself as a Self-Starter anymore. I had thought that as an important mystic returning from a profound journey, it would be self-evident to me how I ought to go about presenting my views to the world. I should write a book, for example, or create a podcast or video channel.

But as it turns out, my Inner World is too stubborn for me to be able to construct my presentation without help. My Inner World did not want to be so easily expressed. While I allow that at any moment the inspiration could strike and I could produce an expression of my world fully formed, I no longer expect it.

Instead, I must rely on “a little help from my friends,” which is much harder to come by than most people suspect. As a very rare mystic, I do not fit into any category with which people are familiar, and very few people know how to help a person in such a situation.

My stuckness extends even to the dilapidated condition of this website, which is only being amended because a friend shared a strong opinion with which I agreed. I should post something to let people know I’m not dead. Or at least, not ALL dead. I could be mostly dead— Awaiting Resurrection—which seemed like a good title, so I’m going with it.